"I get lost in the beauty of everything I see. 

The world ain't half as bad as they paint it to be."

Ryan Tedder, Come Home

Today was an okay day. It was hard at first. But I've been realizing things in last few hours. This time of day is probably where I do my most deep and profound thinking. I like it.

"Defeat is not the worst of failures. Not to have tried is the true failure. "

George Edward Woodberry

I have had a very hard day today. I was getting pestered left and right by my parents for starters. I woke up with horrible cramps, nausea, tiredness, and soreness. Immediately my mom told me to get up and the nagging starts. Then I ate and after that my dad wouldn't let me finish like two minutes of my show because I had to start studying. I HATE STUDYING. It's horrible. I know I want to be an entertainer nothing else. But then there's segway into my next thing. Dance class. I have been going everyday 4 hours each day. For about a month on and off. And I don't feel like I've improved! Plus this guy in there doesn't even notice me and I see him basically everyday. And thats when it occurred to me. Right now, I am a nobody. To people I am not interesting, pretty, a good dancer, a cool person, I have the personality of a dork, I am someone they could care less about. No one looks at me and says "I want to be her." And I don't know... its complicated. THENNNN I feel like I lost a best friend tonight. We had a fight but just like all my other friends I have lost, they seem like the couldn't care less. She had people over when we had a conversation on the phone and she kept laughing and stuff and it was like, I was in such a painful position at that point and she totally just made me feel worse. I know thats not what friends do. But honestly it seems like she could give a fuck about our friendship or me in general. And that makes me feel so just gross... OH well... at least I have Aurora.

For now.

"Tired of injustice
Tired of the schemes
The lies are disgusting
So what does it mean
Kicking me down
I got to get up
As jacked as it sounds
The whole system sucks"

Michael Jackson- Scream

Wow, so it's been awhile. Lot's and lots have happened since I last logged onto this website. More than I ever could express in a blog unless of course I decide to publish a novel. LOL. Anyways, let me go over the highlights and of course the low lights in the past year that popped into my head. Barack Obama was elected, Farrah Faucet, Michael Jackson, Ted Kennedy, DJ AM, and Patrick Swayze all died, and politics are getting more heated by the second. And in the past year in my life? I don't even know where to begin or write about because so much has been going on in my life at this point. So I'll just talk about what I did today. Because I have decided to make this a daily blog. 

Today has been pretty uneventful. I involuntary stayed up till 3 am this morning because I couldn't sleep. And I had to get up to go to my new homeschooling program at 8 in the morning. So I did that and went back to bed till 1 pm! LOL. So then after I got up, ate lunch, and did some work and now I'm here writing this. At 7 pm tonight I will be doing hip hop dance classes till 11 pm. Yeah, I decided to be really dedicated to dance these days. I do about 4 hours daily. So go me!  Alright well that's it for tomorrow. I'll be signing in tomorrow for some more blogging about my day tomorrow! 

TOOTLES!!!!!